I find this to be the most enjoyable Saturday afternoon I have had in a very long time. I hope my life leads to more and more days like this.

My mom came and stayed with me last night to take care of me, and I definitely feel better. :) She made me homemade macaroni and cheese and we watched Finding Nemo. She had to leave this morning though. :(

After she left, I had the whole afternoon to myself. My roomates weren't around, everyone was out of town. So I just ran errands, and I ended up at Barnes and Noble. That place, despite being a corporate chain, is so very enticing to me. So many books. And it smells so good. The atmosphere does a very good job of making me buy books. I spent way too much money there.

Then I took the long way home, just because. Down the pretty part of Milledge, down Old Lexington. How odd that a road can remind you of a person or a time in your life. And how odd that a bookstore can be the place where you feel most at home. I want more days like this. I want more days to drive and think and watch the day pass away. I am tired of noisy days. I am tired of getting up early for busy-ness. I will get up early any day to make breakfast and sit around. However, I don't know how long I can get up and plow through class after class.

The leaves are finally changing.

It has come to my attention that I am perhaps becoming things that I have dreamed of, and some things that I have feared. I am not worried, however. People always say to just be yourself, and I wonder how you can be someone else. Everything you do must in some way be a facet of yourself that you happen to explore at that moment. At this moment, I am quiet. I am more introverted. I have secrets. I have more life inside of me than I show. I am tired of developing relationships and friendships that are not my own, but are instead assumptions of an onlooking crowd.

I am, however, happy with my life, and the people in my life- new and old. I wonder who I will still know in two years. I wonder whose weddings I will attend, and who will be at mine. I wonder even where I will be then. Up north somewhere, I think. I hope. I need some more snow in my life. Just for a little while.

More snow, and more chocolate. And maybe more reeses pieces too. And shoes.

Time to go read away a fantastic day...