Good Grief.

I just want my darn life back. I want Athens back, I want my friends all the way it used to be. I want home to be back at 5435 Wedgewood Court. I want Sweetie to still be around (Scarlett too). I want Lindsey to live 5 minutes away from me. I, oddly enough, miss the second semester of calculus. I wish I didn't have to do the things I do now, I want to not have to fix the things I have to fix.

Most of all, I just want my best friends. I think God must be teaching me something big; I just can't see it yet. The one summer when I think I need people the most, is the summer when I feel like I am a million miles away. I don't want to fight, I hate fighting, and I don't want the people close to me to fight. I am tired of everything.

You know what, I am sorry that you guys read the bad journal entries too.

Good things about this summer:
learned how to play golf
getting a tan
the lake w/cort jess and amy
helping lindsey pack for europe
seeing laura at camp
lots of good movies
ice cream
scarlett
savannah next week
seeing my brother and my mom and dad and grandma...

best part about this summer:
its almost over


i am sorry if i have seemed distant to everyone. i dont know why, i just feel displaced and not myself lately. i am tired of fighting so hard for so many things, exhausted really. but home is no place to recover; not right now. so i am tired and weak with no rest, and trying to figure out how to stay strong and make it through these last weeks. i need someone to make me laugh, please... i need someone to hug me. I just need my friends. If I was never good at telling you, I love you guys more than anything and miss you.

Please, God, let there be people out there. Let life be ok again. Let me breathe. Please.